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[Ml601]

Sometimes I randomly have this feeling of disgust towards myself. Not because of anything particular i dont think but like I just hate being in my head in my body and I don't want to be around anyone. It's a shitty feeling not sure why it happens....

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer]

I can't speak for you but for me I've realized it's stuff in the back of my mind, like I have so many regrets I'm subconsciously obsessing over things, most of which probably don't matter in the grand scheme of things. When I can't quite name what I'm feeling it comes out as a general disgust/anxiety. I wish I had a better therapist but I think that's what it is. My estimation is that's the nature of so much anxiety.

[Ml601 in reply to kinikia95]

I think you may be right something similar as u may be what happens to me in those moments. Thanks I think it will help me to have an idea whats going on when thaat feeling pops up.

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer in reply to Ml601]

I'm glad you posted this and I thank you. The nature of subconscious is that we can't realize it but sometimes we get momentary glimpses. so you know that we can't quite catch it but almost almost? Its trying to calm for a moment and taking the time to think "what's going on right now, what's nagging me" and then sometimes we can grab it. That's what I love about this site, that you can just be minding your own business and then someone will say exactly what you've been thinking. Edit to add: I appreciate your honesty and that helps me.

[Ml601 in reply to kinikia95]

Yes I haven't been on this site long but so far I feel the same as you. So many people going thru similar situations in one place were bound to come across something that we may be thinking but haven't gotten to talk about. Thanks for your response it's also very helpful to understand and overcome those moments.

[Windy101]

Yeah, it sounds like a good reason to go to counseling to figure out what it's about. You don't need to live the rest of your life with periodic disgust coming up. I've felt that and it's been a sign of something I needed to let go of.

[Ml601 in reply to Windy101]

Thank you I think your right maybe it's just one of those things I need to talk about that I haven't had the courage to let out yet. There are so many things I've blocked out of my mind so many years I cant remember maybe that's also causing this. I feel like a puzzle with missing pieces.