I was given this wed site by a real close friend who I confide in when I need someone to talk to. Over the last several months I had distance myself from her and her family and had really never given her any reason. I recently got back into contact with her via email and tried to explain what I was going through, writing or emailing has always been a better way for me to express myself as apposed to in person. This special someone is a in the field but never wanted to burden her with my problems so she put together some links for me to explore.
Not sure if I chose the right group or not but here is what I struggle with from time to time and if this isn't the right venue maybe someone could steer me in the right direction.
I lived in washing state for about a quarter of my life when I moved back to Cape Cod to care for both my parents who were diagnosed with terminal cancer. I was at both my parents bedside when the passed on. Ever since then I at uncontrollable times start getting this weird feeling and thinking about death and it can disrupt a day for me, making work difficult and sleep nearly impossible. I felt as I was able to deal with it until more recently as I am approaching my 50th birthday these thoughts and feelings are getting stronger that toppled with a fear of dying alone really puts me in a depressive state. I am looking for some advice on anything that may help me deal with these feelings when they arrive, I would like to avoid medication routes as the last thing I want is another prescription that may interact with my blood pressure medicines.
any advice or comments from people who are dealing with similar things would be greatly appreciated.