Lately I've been very emotional. Last year on November 22nd, I had what I call a near death experience. I had such a bad panic attack it left me traumatized. This past week all I keep thinking is there's something wrong with me or I'm gonna stop breathing or fall over dead. I'm having weird thoughts. And I'm paranoid. Example a good friend of mines son, who is my age (24) just was found dead a few days ago. And me right away I get fixiated on that . Like oh my god what if that happens to me , what if I ever tried to hurt myself. I don't wanna die , I'm scared etc. thankfully I'm on Prozac just started about a week ago again so I hope it helps me at least control these weird thoughts. I'm kinda embarrassed to talk to people about all this because I'm afraid of being judged like I'm crazy . I went to a shrink before and I didn't like her she kept looking at me like I'm a nut job. I have bad anxiety and it makes me somewhat depressed. I travel 120 miles a day round trip to work and that's really getting to me sitting at a desk all day, I change jobs in less than two weeks thank god I found one closer. It's like if I'm with a group of people I'm fine , but I can't sit . I need my mind constantly occupied. What helps you guys ?? Sorry for ranting .