The struggle

[Slimmkimmm]

I’m new on here and for a while now maybe 2 years I’ve struggled with severe anxiety and depression. I’ve had depression for years and maybe very little anxiety attacks in the past but the past two years they have been worse. I didn’t have a job for three months due to a major anxiety attack I had and ended up at the emergency. I’ve been to therapy but lately no anxiety good but depression and self harm have entered my life yet again I haven’t self harmed since I last tried to commit suicide and ended up in in patient now all I want to do is hurt so nothing else stands in my way...

[blackcat64013]

Hi Slimmkimmm,

Welcome to the forum.

I can tell there's something big going on for you internally. Just want to ask about how you are feeling. Can you ID your emotions, like feeling shocked, angry, saddened, confused or guilty at the moment? Is there anything you can do right now to change them? If not, just accept that they are there. There is nothing to do but sit them out.

If you don't not feel comfortable talking right now, that's okay. Just wanted to let you know you we are here if they want to talk some more.

There are places you can go to get support. Health Unlocked support is located at the bottom this blog page. Scroll right down to the bottom and locate the help centre.

Please call your doctor or another mental health professional for an appointment as soon as possible. These are really important people to touch base with. You need to let them know how your health has changed.

[Slimmkimmm in reply to blackcat64013]

How I feel I can’t even explain. I can’t even explain to my therapist I’m very introverted I keep to myself. On a daily basis I go through a variety of emotions changing so fast my mind doesn’t know how to take it. I have not been back to my therapist since I’ve gotten anxiety under control but I don’t wanna go back because depression has worsened and that the fact I have messed up and have cut again to make pain fade away I don’t want to be sent back to the in patient place it’s confusing my family says it’s because of the environment I grew up in and some say I have a severe anger problem or I’m bi polar not to which I don’t even know is true

[Olivia2017]

Sounds so hard! I am sending you positive, warm wishes.