OOOKK, so sometimes I get these phases or periods were I feel really lonely, I feel like everyone hates me, or just doesn’t find me interesting and that people don’t want to associate with me for that reason. I feel depressed at times and it gets really bad to the point were I question what would happen if I just wasn’t here! I try to take every single day at a time though, and I’m in a good spot right now because I haven’t felt those above mentioned symptoms or emotions in a week or more now, I guess mostly because I have been very busy. But anyways I feel like i did have a lot on my plate and a lot that added to my depression. One of those things being that I could not find a job. I am happy to say though that I finally got a good job with good benefits and full time hours and it’s 5 minutes away from my 🏡 home!! So that’s a lot of plus plus pluses for me! I have never really been able to hold a job, and every job that I have had, mind y’all I have had some really good job opportunities that I have completely blew! I always find the slightest excuse and quit! This time I want to be different but I’m scared I’m nervous and the only thing I know is that I just cant blow this again. I start on Monday, Nov 6th so we will see how it goes. I am truly rooting for myself and give myself pep talks here and there and mostly pray to god everything will work out. I am going to school at night already and I’m hoping now I can juggle working full time in the day and then going to school from Monday-Thursday from 5:30-8:30 at night
I am hoping everything works out