Introducing Myself

Hi! I live with Generalized realized Anxiety Disorder and suffer from Major Depressive episodes. On top of that I am a little but obsessive compulsive, even though I do not have the disorder itself. In August I attempted suicide and was hospitalized for that. Lately I have been struggling with physical symptoms of my Anxiety.

One of the things I hate the most is having to apologize for the behavior my anxiety makes me have. Example, if I am struggling and need of someone's care and attention, I will apologize foe needing it because I feel like I am burdening them. I absolutely hate that but I am highly sensitive and I notice even the slightest changes in someone's voice when they're talking to me. Even if they might not be mad at me, I will interpret it that way. That is something that I am trying to change but I'm still fighting.

[help_each_other]

Dear Life with GAD: I am similar. I am very sensitive to the actions of others, have GAD, and have some OC(P)D. One thing that helps me is realizing that most people are less sensitive than we are -- and they are not meaning anything by their choice of intonation. Sometimes - if I think they are (even subconsciously),I do let them know how I interpret their intonation. This may help make them aware - and sometimes change their behavior.

Asking for other people's care and attention is OK. If you can, try to disperse your need among more than one person .. and let the people know you are not not putting it all on one person.

I wish you strength. I trust you will get through this.

[Sprinkle1]

One lesson I learnt is to build a thick skin. And not take what people say personal. These lessons help me a lot. I believe in therapy and would recommend you see a therapist, also get in a support group they are So helpful. I trust you are on med's for you illness. I have clinical depression and severe anxiety, a touch of agoraphobia I am now on 6 med's a day and they are helping - I expect more improvement. Be good to yourself, do not put yourself down, and do a least 1 nice thing a day for yourself. I send love & peace. Sprinkle 1

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Hi Sprinkle1,

Thanks for your response. I am in therapy and I take meds too. They are helping but some days I wonder if they stopped. I think I'll know more eventually.

You are right, I need to not take things personal and not let my mind wander so far off because more often than not, I am telling myself people don't want to deal with me when they actually aren't thinking that.

I do need a support group. I used to go to one but it no longer meets. My therapist are getting one together and I hope that it'll start running soon. There aren't any support groups that I know of for anxiety and depression where I live besides the one I used to be in but disintegrated and the one that is going to be started at some point.

I loved support group. It was so helpful to me. I miss it quite a bit.

I'm hanging in there and doing things to try to help myself.

Thank you so much. I wish you the best with your illness as well and we should keep in touch around here.

[Sprinkle1]

Hello so nice to see your response, The meds take time to settle in, often weeks, if it has been longer than that, talk to your Dr. The support group I'd go anyway. With the help of a friend I finally found one, it is mixed problems, so I'll go looking for support. People in groups are generally caring and responsive. Life with GAD IS difficult. But therapy will help clear out some of your incorrect thinking that holds you back. Remember - a lot of the time it is your brain lying to you. I have had a couple of rough days, thankfully I am improved today, the weather is nice, so I will be going to pick up my Busbar refill and go for a walk. Being good to myself. So I repeat be good to yourself, you are a valuable, lovable person, and do at least 1 nice thing a day for yourself. Sending Love & Peace. Sprinkle 1.

p.s. I will keep in touch.