Severe depression

[Rosa09]

My depression is getting worse, I feel so bad every day, I have hardly been out of the house over the last week or 2,hardly seen or spoken to anybody, yesterday I was in bed all morning, lunch then all afternoon. I have no energy, no motivation, no reason to get up, no reason to do anything, I don't eat properly. If I do get up I just sit watching TV, don't wash, don't get dressed don't do anything. I feel totally rock bottom. I am on 45mg Mirtazapine and seeing doctor on Tuesday and hoping to be put on Quetiepine 25mg (suggested by mental health team). I am now 65 and have had depression on and off since I was young, life seems just one big struggle with no pleasure and nothing to look forward to. My depression worsened after 15 year relationship ended in May. Is there any end to this misery.

[Maxiomargie]

My prayers are with you. I would be in the same position if I didn't work or have my family around me. I have to struggle every day with A/D. Getting through the day is tough. Definitely have a talk with your doctor. Baby steps please. I'm here for you too.

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I was on Mirtazapine 45mg for over two years and can say that it made me the same as you. Generally physically tired and unmotivated. However it did make me much less suicidal and less bad thoughts as far as self harm goes.

I never got as bad as to not wash myself though. I think you might feel better after a good shower and clean up of your living space. After that you might feel better about things and might be well enough to venture outside, even if it's just to the shops to get some food.

Small baby steps, one at a time.

[Sprinkle1]

Hello, I can relate to you, it is awful. I do make myself get up, but someday's I do not get dressed, clean my teeth or comb my hair. I do my dishes, take care of my cats, read anything I can about my illness. It is a mean illness, we need our Dr. help I also have a Nurse Practitioner and we are working together, I am on 6 meds now (never thought I'd do that as I hate to take pills and the side effects, but I want to get well - so I'll do it.) I attempt to walk or ride my bike everyday - exercise is good. I am 75 - never thought I'd be going thru this hell at my age, I have been suffering since I was young - with relief between. Sounds like you need to be on a SSRI - they are good with some side effects that go quite soon. Be kind to yourself, do Not put yourself down, do 1 thing nice for yourself everyday. I like those coloring books, they help relax me. I wish you well, sending love & peace. Sprinkle 1