I’m lowkey having a panic attack just thinking that it’s my time to go. I feel like I’ve made peace with demons in my life and I’m becoming so enlightened because of this existential wormhole I’ve been in that I can’t live on this earth anymore. Everything is so deep, the smallest things have stirred up conversations in my mind that no one else would have. I start feeling nervous thinking this is it, this is a part of life - to reach enlightenment however you reach it and move on. And something around me feels like I’m getting close to my peak. I hope I don’t sound too crazy, I can’t describe it any other way.