I woke up this morning with a huge pressure in my head and blurry vision. Ended up going to the ER and missing my finals for school today. I don't know if I had an anxiety attack or what. I thought I was going to die. But also find myself feeling like I wouldn't care if I did because of how much mental pain I feel every day. I feel so alone and helpless. It's like I can't even control it either. I have psychiatry appointment tomorrow. I hope it gets better.