Ehh

[Britti]

Well I managed to get some work done from home today. It was more difficult than I was expecting. Just trying to focus.. made me quiet irritable. I know pmdd is hitting in hard this week so I am trying to be forgiving of myself. Very frustrated in general with life. Just feel miserable in all aspects .. not sure what or how to work on that. I've been on and off meds for many years.. losing hope that I will find one or a combination that will actually make somewhat of a difference. Considering to give up on meds and just continue on.. since it's not making a difference. Ehh just frustrated to the max today. I requested Monday off several weeks ago.. but I don't believe my boss remembers even though it is on the calendar.. thinking of just not coming in and being like you approved it. Ha. Ehhh man. I will probably remind him on Friday. I've been out of the office for going on 4 weeks now I think.. and next week we're moving to a new office .. not looking forward to that either. Have I mentioned I hate money? Yeah.. I hate it.

[llkron]

I've been feeling like you too. Just lost and lonely. I just restarted my meds too. I got angry at them and quit. I felt they weren't helping. But my panic attacks got worse and with encouragement from family I went back on them. It's such a personal choice. You may always go on and off meds. It has to be your choice. Choice is a beautiful though scary thing. It's going to be ok. Talk to a therapist and a psychiatrist before you stop taking them. I have been told mood disorders become harder to treat the more often you go on and off ghem