Confused

[Gr81ness]

I had a sort of "awakening" last week, but as a result, my OCD is running rampant. It was largely under control until then, with meds and a little therapy. I developed an interest in Eastern philosophy several years ago, kind of off and on. Just looking for an easier way to live, I guess. But it's like all that knowledge culminated and made me totally awake and aware. It's an outstanding feeling but again, my OCD is freewheeling. I am a Pure-O with no real visible compulsions. I suffer from sexual and self harm obsessions mostly. I'm heterosexual and I'm often disturbed by thoughts of homosexuality, etc.

I am just seeking advice on how to deal with this experience and how it relates to my OCD. I'm not even sure if my experience was/is a giant new obsession. Doesn't feel like a typical obsession but I'm not sure about it anymore.

Advice is welcome

[Hidden]

Ask your counsellor? x

[Gr81ness in reply to Hidden]

I went to one last Tuesday and he didn't really refute or acknowledge my experience. He just asked how it felt and I said fantastic. I need more of a holistic/natural therapist I think :/

[Hidden in reply to Gr81ness]

Is he helping your OCD to be less rampant? If not then maybe it's time for a change.

[Gr81ness in reply to Hidden]

It was my first time meeting with him. He gave me some reading material and a little assignment to do. Not seeing him again for a few weeks.