Before anyone asks yes I have seen doctors and all they try to do is put me on mess that make me a robot.
I left an abusive alcoholic about 7 months ago and I was with him for 6 years. When I left him I felt like I didn't really know who I was or what I wanted out life. Most days I feel lost and so soempty. I have been "dating" this guy for the last 4 months and he lives 8 hours away and we have seen each other 3 times. Now he is wanting to move here and wants me to move in. I am not sure I'm ready for that and it is making my anxiety and depression sky rocket. I'm so scared to tell him I just want to focus on myself and figure out who I am. I feel horrible because I thought I was ready but I'm not and now I don't know how to tell him, and it's just making me feel like a horrible person and I just don't want to exist anymore. I'm feeling pain just because I know telling him I'm not ready will cause him pain.