I’m 23 years old and I’ve been majorly depressed for almost 10 years. I have attempted suicide more times than I can count.
I have a 3 year old daughter who is my silver lining.
But ever since she was born, I feel like it has been getting worse. After she was born, I started addressing this problem and actually started getting help. But every medication combination that I have tried seems to knock me down even lower. Each medication failure is like a personal failure to me. It takes so much for me to put that effort in to go to the doctor and collect this medication monthly, and take it everyday just to feel worse.
I’m at the point where I’m just giving up on medication (yes, the first week was hell and I was almost hospitalized).
But it is and always has been so difficult to find any motivation and I’m sure this will not improve by stopping medication.
Does anybody have any suggestions? (Whether it be some sort of medication that won’t put me to sleep or a hobby etc). I have no hobbies which does not help. I just want to keep myself out of this hole without having to go through another failure. Anyone want to discuss what they have tried and what has not/what has worked for them?