Panic attacks ..again

[Aguise28]

So 2 years ago i had my first panic attack, fuled by constant worry and obsessing over my health and my families. The first time they put me on Prozac which was horriblefor me, caused suicidal thoughts and total unhappiness. I went off that and they had me on xanex for maybe a week. .25 mg 2x Dailey. Since then I got a good grip on the attacks, until last week. They started again and so intense. Feel like i can't exhale enough and shakes, mind racing, heart pounding..just all of it. The xanex helps, and takes it away. I only usually need one .25 mg in the mornings and I'm ok the rest of the day. My doc told me to take one each morning for a week or 2 until my higher dose of buspar (went from 10mg a day to 20mg a day) to kick in. My worry is that I will become addicted and can't get off, or worse yet, I can't get over the attacks without something. I went on a LOA for work cause I just couldn't deal..i shake when my husband leaves for work and I have a 3 year old toddler who needs me to be strong. I wanted therapy but my insurance is a high deductible so i have to pay out of pocket full price to be seen, which I can't afford. I got out of this before and did so good, I know it's only been a week onto this but I'm worried. I'm a go go go woman, I'm happy usually and upbeat. This has made me feel like a bad mom, distant from family and I just wanna stay in doors. Any advice or kind words of encouragement would be appreciated 🤕 I'm tired of going to bed positive saying to myself I'll do better tomorrow, just to reach for my xanex first think in the am. Please help .

Much thanks

[Hidden]

Hi it can take up to 6 weeks for the meds to fully kick in and until then you can feel worse. Didn't your doctor tell you this?

Many meds are a bit addictive, some more than others, but if the alternate is suffering instead then I know which I would choose. Don't think too far ahead and start worrying about this, instead concentrate on getting a bit better for now and deal with this if and when the time comes.

If you want to go the self help route then look up mindfullness. You can also do online counselling courses but you do have to pay though I am sure it is a lot cheaper than face to face.

[Aguise28 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you , I will keep that in mind. And I was already on the buspar so I wasn't aware adding to the dose could make me feel worse. I guess I just figured i wouldn't notice much of a diffrence. My doctor did not mention this to me.

Thanks again