Perseverance

[erraticthoughts7]

Today I am doing well after a terrible weekend I had with a reunion with old friends. I have always been able to right the ship until the next episode rears its ugly head. It seems just when I think I have turned the corner something happens in a social setting that sinks me back into a deep abyss. I must say that my lows are terrible but I will never give in and I will fight this fight until the day that I cease to exist.

[larae0526]

You're very strong. I find it inspiring that you keep fighting. I wish I was more like that

[erraticthoughts7 in reply to larae0526]

Never have so much disregard for your own power. Logging on to this site is one punch that has connected, now just continue to swing. Of course you are going to get hit and knocked down but get right back up because this may be a fight that has an endless amount of rounds. I do believe you are up for the challenge but it doesn`t mean anything if you don`t see this in yourself.

[larae0526 in reply to erraticthoughts7]

I don't see myself as strong. Thank you for your kind words. I know it's said you're only given what you can handle. But I'm feeling so lost and dark I'm overwhelmed. I don't see hope.

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Hi I am like you in that; thank goodness my depression is mainly mild until something triggers in me and I get terrible lows. These are awful but I have learnt from experience how to deal with it and I know I will come out the other side again in time. Until then I treat myself as fragile and don't put pressure on myself to recover. I just concentrate on getting through my normal activities until I feel better.

My biggest fear is that one day I won't bounce back...