Agoraphobia, Anxiety, & Depression in College

[Alexa223]

Hello, I'm new to this website and I just wanted to connect with others who feel like me. I've had a long battle with my mental health, however the last few years was the best of my life. I was able to build relationships with friends, take public transportation, and was about to receive my license when I suddenly relapsed. This year, I was terrified of everyone around me and leaving my home just like the 1st year I was diagnosed. The confidence I spent so many years building through therapy all collapsed in front of me.

I started therapy again and the past few months I've been able to make great progress. I started a new job, I took public transportation by myself for the first time again, and college is alright but.. I'm frustrated and tired of the constant panic attacks. I don't acknowledge my accomplishments because I feel like if everyone else can ride public transportation or attend class then I don't deserve any praise? Some days I lose hope that I'll be able to overcome this a 2nd time. When meeting new friends, I get thoughts like people will treat me differently if they realize I have anxiety. There are A LOT of things I CAN'T do.. at least for now.. and it hurts me.

Thank you for listening.