Dealing

[Reamak]

Hi All,

I have been really struggling lately , I can't seem to pull It together I'm usually very social I find myself just wanting to be home alone but still very lonely it's kind of crazy . Getting out of the house is a large task for me. I just want to feel normal again I've been having vivid nightmares

[Hidden]

Hi nice to meet you. The trouble with isolating yourself is the fear of going out and about again. The longer you do it the worse it gets. You have to start pushing out of your comfort zone if you want to be less lonely. Just go for very short walks at first then try going a bit further when you feel up to it. It would also help to have someone with you.

You don't say whether you are having any treatment at the moment? If not then I would look into this too.

[Reamak in reply to Hidden]

No treatment as of right now but it's been an everyday struggle to get things done I wake up with the intention to do important things dr appt etc but find myself fixated on cleaning I just want to feel better again and I can't

[Hidden in reply to Reamak]

That's avoidance and very common. Nothing will change unless you take action it so make that appointment and force yourself to go. Do you have anyone to go with you? Do you have any support?

If you don't want to go the medical route then have a look at self help such as mindfullness, meditation, yoga etc. There is lots of info online.

[Reamak in reply to Hidden]

Thank you , I have my husband but I shared my inner battle with thoughts of self harm with him and it freaked him out he also works a lot I lost my job a few weeks ago I was doing well these past few years but I started working under a male manager who was verbally abusive so much that I have a case right now that event triggered this bout. I thought I beat this but it's come back with a vengeance.

[Hidden in reply to Reamak]

This has obviously terrified your husband and I am not surprised. He doesn't know what to do to support you so you need to tell him. Do it calmly and assure him you are not thinking of doing anything. Do you have any other family or friends? Spreading the support around a bit would be easier on him.

There is lots of info online about how to talk to your family and educate them about this illness.

[Reamak in reply to Hidden]

The family is part of the reason I have the anxiety they usually trigger episodes I just moved back here so no one I trust

[Reamak]

I just feel like when I put the pieces together and move on rebuild my life something comes out and throws me back into the dark place