New to this board, just trying to find some support while I am going through a really rough time. I have been dealing with mental health issues for the past 10 years or so. Its nothing new to me. Been diagnosed with several disorders, but I'd say bipolar 2 is probably the most accurate diagnosis. But it hasn't been this severe in a long time and I honestly didn't see it coming. I was doing really well, I have had my lows every couple months or so but it always passes. So thats what I was expecting this time, but it isn't passing, its completely debilitated me. Going to see a psychiatrist next week because I think I need some kind of mood stabilizer, haven't been on meds for years and found some alternative things that helped me and its not something I ever thought I'd have to do. Thought it was under control. I have quite the history with medications, have been on most of them, it was hard to find anything to work for me. My desperation had led me to electro shock therapy which didn't help either. I've had a long history so this journey back to hopefully find a medication is a bit daunting and brings back a lot of old memories of me just not responding to anything, having horrible side effects, etc. I am hoping for the best but right now am at an extreme low, just feel completely devastated, mixed states of depression and anxiety. Trying to get through the weekend until I see psychiatrist but my head is just running with thoughts, I am not myself at all, can't really be alone, and its just crushing me. I have a type A perfectionist personality so that mixed up with all this is just a mess. Sure this post is a bit all over the place- but I guess that accurately depicts where my head is- all over the place.