Hello, I'm new here and struggling immensely. I am under the care of a psychologist and psychiatrist but feel so horrible.
Back in February I had an adverse reaction to a cosmetic Botox injection. It started the day after, in which I felt like I couldn't get a breath of air in, then diarrhea, vomiting and severe insomnia. I would fall asleep and jolt back awake immediately. I went to doctor after doctor and they kept telling me it was anxiety and would throw different sleep meds at me that didn't work. Finally after the 5th day of no sleep I completely lost it and reached out to a psychologist I used with my son last year. She had me in right away and had me see a psychiatrist she works with. It took about a month of trying meds (11 total) before she did genetic testing and found the meds I could use. I'm now ok mirtazapine, gabapentin and Valium. All at night time only.
My sleep started to improve with the meds and the anxiety lifted but then the depression set in. Not long after I found swollen lymph nodes in my groin. I went to my doctor and she said we'd just watch them for a bit. This fired my anxiety back up.... I went back a week later and saw a nurse practitioner in her office and she was horrible to me, and kept asking "are you sure you aren't just anxious!?" Of course I'm anxious!!! I have swollen lymph nodes. Eventually she looked and said "wow these are swollen" and sent me for an ultrasound. They came back as reactive nonpathologically. I've been a wreck since. I had a pap and that came back normal. But I'm afraid that I'm a hypochondriac now.... I have two more appointments tomorrow.... with a gastroenterologist and a general surgeon. Have any of you been able to bounce back from severe health anxiety? I keep thinking something is horribly wrong with me because I can't get a satisfying breath of air and I don't ever feel hungry anymore. Are these signs of anxiety? I've lost 15 lbs in 3 months.... I'm scared of never being the same again. ☹️