I can't take it

[Xxxemokilljoybabyxxx]

Im so sad i feel like Everyone is against me and i ruin everything...im so depressed everyday and when i stop being depressed im addicted to the feeling it gives me

[Kobojunkie]

addicted to the feeling of being down on yourself?

Maybe you should consider switching that with the feeling of being happy. Try being addicted to the feeling of happiness, maybe then you would not feel so helpless 🤔

[Dave_H]

I think you need to ask for help, either from a therapist or from a psychiatrist who can diagnose as to whether this is just a thought pattern or actual depression. I can empathize with your thinking, though. I too at times crawl back into my depression because it's _safer_ there. It can almost feel like a warm, comfortable blanket. But I think you may find the more you do that, the sicker you will become. Facing things like depression and anxiety take an tremendous amount of courage. People who face these things and live with them are some of the most courageous people in the world, especially in this society where we are all expected to just handle everything on our own. If you're not ready to try medication just yet, please do reach out to a therapist who can help you sort this out. There's a better life ahead of you than what you are currently experiencing; you may just need to get some guidance to see it. Best Wishes.

[Nothing_but_books]

Hi,

I am so sorry to hear how sad you are.

May I ask what feeling depression gives you that you are addicted to? Can you get it any other way?