Feeling off all the time.........

[Afraidmale]

Does anybody get these messages?

[AlexSZfutureRN]

Which messages? Thread posts or something else?

[Afraidmale in reply to AlexSZfutureRN]

Thread or whatever they are called.. I post things and nobody writes back but I'm not mad just wish I had people to talk to sometimes about things..

[AlexSZfutureRN in reply to Afraidmale]

It looks like 3 of your threads haven't gotten replies, I can understand why you might feel this way. It's probably one of two things: either it's chance, that people don't see it and reply before it's knocked off the first page, or perhaps people don't have experience with drugs like Geodon.

[SuzyQ1948]

I see your post and you can post me anytime.

[HopingCat]

Sometimes it shows people days later unless you are following some. Like yesterday someone replied to my post 22 days later. That's when he has seen it

[Hidden]

Hi! Yes, posts, and on a daily basis sometimes, there may be 30+ in my inbox. I try to be judicious and not respond to one that contains situations or meds, etc. unfamiliar to me and believe others better-informed about the issues will be responding.

So is there something today you want to talk about?

[Afraidmale]

I'm just going through crap for about 9 months and shit sucks got up today dizzy as crap figured it was from my medication that I just started last night but called doctor and she said no it's not. I'm just sick of this.......

[Hidden in reply to Afraidmale]

Well, I understand why you were frustrated that you weren't getting replies...Sounds like you are down and tired and a bit angry. Can identify with that. I know I wish I could have immediate relief when in a bad spell.

If you could be more specific about what the "shit" and "crap" is that you're so tired about, that might clue me into what is happening.....you mentioned being dizzy ....

[Afraidmale in reply to Hidden]

I be been dealing with anxiety and depression for some time now I wasn't feeling to bad but the other day and today I have been not that lucky. Been on so many pills the past months that i didn't want to try anything new but until now I have too and I got real dizzy this morning I'm just losing hope that the doctors have a clue of what they are talking about.

[Hidden]

I hear you. Checking each day to see if you feel stable gets very old, very quickly.

And trying to figure out day to day why you're not feeling ok and have anxiety and its' partner depression can tempt us to just give up. Been there, done that.

But you can get back up after screaming in frustration. And no guarantee you won't feel like that again. But you are not alone. You can get better. And it's hard.

Life maintenance is a royal pain in the ass for me.

Please just hang in there, even if it is only 5 or ten minutes at a time. When I am feeling the icy terror of anxiety and panic, and hopelessness of depression, my neuro-psychiatrist has told me more than once to just do or focus on something productive for 15 minutes at a time.

Medicine and mental health care are not as scientific as we would like. We do the best we can with what is out there. That includes this venue. Keep in touch. Keep writing. Just keep going, ok?

[Afraidmale in reply to Hidden]

I like your post it ment alot to me I'm trying my hardest to just make it day to day I'm 35 and have a family of 6 I don't like them seeing me like this I want to be there for them I want to have my life back I want to be happy and enjoy my kids again. I don't want to give up and I'm not but days are hard wish I could just go back to never having or knowing anything about this. This is the worst feeling in the world and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

[Hidden]

Hello again. Man, you are still in bad shape at the moment, aren't you? My day was more than ok, so I have some energy left to be your personal cheerleader.

So here goes....and remember the day will come when you are ok and I need you to do some cheerleading for me.

Yes, it would be great to go back and change the "future" we had. I also have thought about several specific things, if they just hadn't happened, I wouldn't have to deal with this constant concern about dealing with depression and anxiety day to day.

But that's actually the past. We do have today and a true, real future ahead ...even if we think that's not possible now.

I am so glad you have a spouse and children. I am married, and although he gets frustrated sometimes, my husband loves me and has "stepped up to plate" during my bad times when I didn't know what to do. Sometimes there is nothing to be done except check with my doctor and just tell me we are in this together.

Don't feel guilty about your family. They love you. You're their Dad no matter what. You feel badly that you can't be the Dad you think you should be. (Whatever that means..."should" is a useless word, isn't it?) Just be the best Dad you can at the moment. I'm from a household of ten. You have a large family too. I remember it wasn't the amount of time Dad had for me, it was just the fact he was there.

Please do not give up on yourself. Hang in there. Talk to your doctor and therapist about what's going on, and how you can interact with your family during this very difficult time. Remember me telling you about my 15 minute attention limit when times are rough for me? That 15 minute of attention can take so much effort to choke down the anxiety or depression, but you can do it.....even with your children.

Stay in touch with this forum. Keep trying, keep writing. Maybe even keep a journal of your feelings. Get a baseball bat and beat the hell out of the back tree in your yard (when your kids aren't around :)).

You're in my thoughts.