My days are decent, I wake up and do things around the house or go to work. Night time is when I get anxious, anxious about going to bed, and to lay by myself. I fear that when I go to sleep I won't wake up. I hate being alone and not having someone here with me. I hate thinking I might not ever find someone who accepts me for me. But mostly I'm tired and I'm tired of being so worked up at night I cannot get to sleep. I could take my Xanax but I'm trying not to, I don't want to rely on these medications to get through my days.