my MO tried something out of the ordinary - let me have a 'vacation' from ADT for a short while, even though i am Castrate -resistant. he was hoping we coudl keep PSA down while my Testosterone recovered, to see if that woudl make me feel better. to use his words, i have 'complained bitterly of the disruptive side effects of medical castration (mostly low libido and dysphoria)' . during that break i had a PSMA-PET scan showing uptake in my T12 vertebrae , possible C7, and at the prostate. he referred me to Radiation to see if 'de-bulking' by radiating would help lengthen my vacation. finally after a month i was able to see the RO, and she wanted MRIs. she said she would not re-radiate the prostate, which has a small tumor growing nearby. but they woudl radiate the spine, and referred me to the spine team.
it has been two months since i was referred to Radiation, and i have yet to see the spine specialist. my PSA during my vacation has gone from 0.55 to 9.69 as of Monday - nearly doubling in just the last three weeks alone. i do not see getting radiation before the end of the year as a possibility, so Monday i made the painful decision to end my 'vacation' from ADT. my Testosterone went up from 13 to 16 during that time. i was so worried that we would not be able to get a handle on the rising PSA if we let it go any higher that i let them give me another lethal injection of Eligard. i really don't know how some of you guys do it - my brain does not function right without Testosterone. I have had crippling depression, and we have tried Zoloft, Bupropion Duloxetine (which caused serotonin syndrome, worst five days of my life) and after turning myself in to the Behavioral Health Immediate Care on my 25th wedding anniversary due to obsessive thoughts taking up my days, they put me on Abilify, which is an anti-psychotic of all things. before ADT i was solid as a rock, mentally. i never understood depression before i had it. anyway to the point here - my doctor asked me to re-start Zytiga Monday also - we tried it in April but quit after four days due to Dizziness. well, after two days of Zytiga and prednisone, the dizziness is back. i don't know if it is the Zytiga or the prednisone, but my doc said Zytiga is one of the best-tolerated of the second line drugs.
Does the dizziness get better? anyone with experience? i hate to take this tool out of out 'toolbox' of things to fight cancer - i have a 6th grader i really need to be here for until she graduates high school in 6 1/2 years - i think we are going to need every tool in the box. .