so close to change…

[Chrysalis3]

I know I’m at the cusp of changing.

My husband says how could you say you’re sick without showing symptoms. If that doesn’t make sense then How could say you think about things when you take no action

I talk to you and you stay quiet , how does that show you care. It just backs up what a narcissist you are. You expect people to come talk to you and come find you and beg you to talk.

you know I had to cancel the trip with our child that you were not going on because you could care less to plan anything for her and you never even asked if I was going to reschedule or if you could assist with that. You don’t give a flying rats a$$ about anybody but yourself.

Anyone dare say anything and you throw your tantrums.

At this point I don’t know what is truth and what is going on . I find myself so confused and so out of touch. I feel like I’m going insane and any and all coping strategies or ideas I’ve been given are just out the window.

How could one person (me) be so miserable and toxic …how do I move 10 steps forward and end up going back 100 steps

[Mamamichl]

thank you for sharing your experience. I remember feeling this way with my ex. I hope you have left him, so you can get time away and heal. If not, you may want to reach out to an abuse hotline in your area and a counselor, if possible. Even if you can’t control what he does, you can control what you do and how your kid is around this toxicity or not. Zen hugs.