Sorry to trouble all of you. First off, nice to meet you, and I hope you are having a great day.
I am in need of some advice with regards to what I should do. I graduated university in 2023, with an absolutely amazing maths degree, because I followed Cal Newports advice would recommend his books if you haven't already. Anyway, I have done nothing since, no jobs, no internships, no work experience nothing. I went from being the person that was the first in the library each morning, and the first to turn up to lectures, to the person that does absolutely nothing all day every day, because I don't know what I need to do and nothing sticks. Nothing. I get excited for a day, and then I wake up and do nothing just lying bed getting nothing done. I recently got diagnosed with ADHD, like this week, and I am waiting on titration. There is a chance that it doesn't work for me, so I am preparing for the worst. What do I need to get a job? How do I stop myself from being overwhelmed, by all the things I need to do? It feels like I got lucky at university by having the freedom to set my own routine, and I managed to do amazing because of that, but I think I will struggle in a job, and will almost immediately get fired, by not following instructions or just getting overwhelmed, or being overwhelmed by the job search process with regards to what I need to do. There are so many things I need to think of and do, and I just can't. I am in the UK, so I don't know if it is ok for me to join or not, but I got overwhelmed by reddit and realised it is not good for me, so I thought I would give this a shot.
I spend all day reading about things, but not actually doing anything, and I don't know how to fix that. I read a lot of companies in the UK, want to hire people with ADHD, for their divergent thinking, but I am not entirely sure which and I am not entirely sure, how to go about applying and what I need to do. It seems so silly, I am amazing at doing work, but if I am left to my own devices I get nothing done, and companies look at what you do in your free time, to see if they should hire you, but I just do the work required of me to a high quality and then do nothing else. There are graduate schemes in the UK, that I have missed this year, I could try applying next year, but I have also got this massive absence where I did nothing, that I can't explain. I could also apply to graduate jobs, but I am not entirely sure what I need to do before I apply and so on. It is all so confusing and overwhelming, so I get nothing done. The thing I have found works for me is focusing on a few things and doing them well, but the problem is I don't know what is needed to get a job, I don't know what I need to do, and what I need to prioritise so nothing gets done.
Here is what I think I need to do, improve my social skills, as they are currently at nill. Nada, which is bad. Secondly, improve my technical skills, maybe try doing some certifications in order to get jobs, but I don't know which and what I need to focus on. Gain some work experience, but I don't know how to do that with ADHD, I am like the laziest person ever, but if you give me a task I will unintentionally be absolutely amazing at it, but you can't manage me. I need to escape this mess of doing nothing every day, but I don't know how to. I need help. What do I do? Do I just wait for medication, and see what works, and then apply for jobs after that?
Sorry for the long wall of text. I am worried I don't really have ADHD, and I am just being lazy, and I need to try harder. But I don't know what I need to do. What if I really am just lazy, and got misdiagnosed and now need to grow up? Will medication even fix this?