Hey All,
Last few months I have been becoming very aware of my ADHD and not long ago, literally a week ago I got officially diagnosed and prescribed medication (which I am yet to take.
I feel my whole life makes sense and it seems that a lot of things that I thought were part of my personality are actually because of my ADHD brain. It makes sense because I always felt that I wasn't living quite up to my potential. I wanted to just jot some interesting facts about myself which relate back to ADHD, perhaps the ones which aren't so commonly listed on the internet. Some of these may relate to other factors such as trauma etc. But knowing I have ADHD does shed more light on them.
(1) I've always had this extra sense perception and tend to pay way too much attention to the facial expressions of others. Anything off I interpret as if someone's not interested in me or they dislike me etc. I'll be conversing to someone and a slight change or fluctuation in facial expression can really get to me. Maybe it's related to my ADHD.
(2) I'm not sure if this is entirely related. But I tend to be very secretive. For example, I don't like playing stuff out loud if I'm on my phone like when I'm with others (some exceptions around very close people who I'm comfortable with). I care way too much about what others think about me.
(3) In social interactions with others, I can't ever relax (again some exceptions with those who I'm extremely close with like family). I feel a timid, restricted. Sometimes thoughts are racing and I just can't sit back and talk in a relaxed and calm manner. When controversial topics come up I tense up. Although I wanna be confident and relaxed when talking I feel a bit tense. This goes sometimes but overall I notice this tension. For some background I do have some social anxiety although it's gotten much better over the years.
(4) In conversations I just can't maintain a proper structure. I find it hard to properly structure my sentences and get my point across without stumbling at times or just repeating, mumbling.