My life is terrible as an ADHD

[Hu123ADHD]

In primary and secondary school , my studying was heavily regulated by teachers . so I had a very good grade during that time . But after I entered into a top uni in my country , I suddenly find it extremely hard to focus on reading and studying especially sitting with a lot of colleges in classroom ( I shake my leg heavily so my colleagues in uni hated me ) . So I have to walk outside for hours a day to keep myself calm . My hearted beat fast when I tried to read some hard texts in textbook . So I dropped out of uni in the third year . Then i transferred to a uni in Australia , but things still didnt get better . I can not focus on reading and sitting still in classroom . I have to walk back and forth or do something easy and interested ( reading Twitter or online games ) . So I dropped out again and entered a third class uni ( LTU ) and I graduated luckily with pass grade . Now I am struggling with master degree in USYD ( not doing good in grade but can pass ) .

I am also extremely to get anxiety . I might not even sleep if I have something to worry about . Some worries about the very future could make me unable to study and get out of bed due to anxiety ( my friends thought I am ridiculous to worry about so many ) . I would like to say , I can only live in peace and calm in very little time each year . All I dream of is to have a live with zero risks in the future . I can never just enjoy the present without thinking about future . These anxiety make me do some crazy things to alleviate it and sometimes even make others agitated by my actions . Can you give me some life advices ?

[Gettingittogether]

Are you being treated? For the ADHD or the anxiet?

[Purplejl]

hi! Sounds very challenging…I get it! My question is the same…have you tried medication for focus! I have been prescribed adderall and I take it twice a day. It helps tremendously with reading! I encourage you to consider! I made it through a master of social work and the meds helped so much with the sitting still reading part! Also…deep breathing and trying to stay in the present moment. If you’re spiritual…prayer helps too. Today has enough trouble if it’s own…no need to focus on the things of tomorrow since they aren’t here yet. Staying present and catching the anxious thoughts before they spiral into too much negativity and fear is key. Perhaps a therapist that specializes in treating folks with ADHD would also help. Don’t give up! It will get better ☀️