I finally found a piece of information I can relate to and agree with.
I struggle a lot with feeling fake, especially now, fighting against substance abuse and going for a big change in my life.
I put myself down and call myself a bullshit ass dude... all because deep down I’ve always known I’ve been bullshitting but that article turned my view of my own self.
It’s just too damn hard, too damn hard to say what I want to say ALOT of the time. I doubt myself immediately and have difficulty identifying the reality of a situation or moment. I honestly can’t say I’ve knowingly been lying to myself and others, even now.
I know I’m lying but I always wondered why I feel I have to. And I believe it’s my natural way of settling the situation or moment, to move to the next thing. Or what i would consider saying, “the easy or easier way out”. I would follow up with feelings of being a terrible, inconsiderate human and start damaging my own self-esteem by degrading my purpose in life.
Getting out of that hole is even hard than the thing that put me in it. It’s like, do I ever get a freakin chance at being even slightly happy and at ease???
Where I stand today, I view myself as actively and rapidly maturing, keeping an open mind with everything and I love myself so damn much, it can feeling questionable. I understand myself enough that whatever I decide to feel, I’m going to feel it strong and so I have to agree with myself if that’s really the right feeling.
I’ve started this thing I’m calling, lying the right way. Being that I’ve been lying and continue to, lying doesn’t always have to be negative.
If you don’t love yourself or feel that you love yourself, LIE TO YOURSELF. Say that you do. As long as it takes, you will one day. It’s just logical and makes sense.
Lying the right way can be applied with anything of the sort. The only rule is, it cannot bring anything negative into being. You’re doing it wrong if that’s the case.
Love you all , hope you have the best of days today! Peace out.