Nothing has ever helped before, so good luck.

[rednblack]

basically, if people relate to me, then its just another person who feels like crap, if someone offers me solutions, they either never go to plan, or they straight up just dont work. seeing psychologists, they just tell me im wrong about the world and that its a magical place, which just makes me feel like hes taking the piss out of me because im not blind, and i can see that the world is clearly NOT a magical place. friends will try to comfort me but theres nothing they can really do, my family lets me rot away in my bedroom 24/7 then when i ask for support with my depression they tell me they always try to help me, and that im making myself feel this way. nothing truly makes me happy anymore, its as if everything has become dull and not amusing in the slightest. i feel as if the only way i would be happy, would be if i was ignorant to all the shit that happens in my life, but because i can see it, nothing will change. so basically, without support from others, support from myself, or any solutions or options i could take, and without any psychologists or drugs that dull my mind, and without family or friends... how do i make life seem less like a soulless void of colourless, mundane, dullness full of people who find issues with everything i do, and issues that stop me from doing anything?

[rednblack]

and yes, these solutions i talk about being offered, i do try them all, several times over, but they have never worked and still to this day they never do.

[Hidden]

Hi, I've no answers to this one. Nothing seems to help so it's no use recommending anything. I guess you'll just have to stay depressed unless you can find any way to pull out of it by youself. Suexx

[Hidden]

I know exactly what you mean. I often get like that especially when I think people are always faulting me. I had that this evening. I know I am super sensitive sometimes and that doesn't help. I wish I knew how to deal with it. All I can do is try to minimise the damage ie I don't lose my temper like I used to, or I go quiet and walk away. If I am feeling up to it I will sometimes debate my corner. It depends whether or not it is worth it at the time.

Bev x

[Findingme in reply to Hidden]

We all know, and often envy, people who sail through life with a sunny disposition, not reacting to sarcasm or put downs because they seem not to even notice it. However at least if I was in a room with you, you would be able to tell if someone was being bitchy to me, and I know you would be there for me, and vice versa. Your sensitivity is part of what makes you kind and caring. I am sorry it is so hurtful for you though, as I know what that is like.

[GreyDays]

Is it wrong to read someone else's post and thank your lucky stars I'm not engulfed in depression to the depths that they are? I have only found this site today and I've only had a couple of replies to,my post but those replies,have been like stars in the darkness. Knowing that someone else is out,there to share the doom and disaster that I'm feeling and perhaps share theirs with me has lifted my spirits a little. Your post reminds me of my counselling when they sent you off to try to do things or take a different view and I would think, what,the,he'll do they know, they make it sound so easy, they don't know how I feel. I must have been so lucky without realising it because the care I got from my gp, the police and the mental health team was amazing. They were always there in the early days popping in each day and later at the end of the telephone.

Gary told me to hang on to positives this morning and that's what I am doing. What I would say to you to be positive is that when something gets you down or feels insurmountable I was told to get out the pens and paper. I thought this was madness but as I felt mad I figured I had nothing to lose. What you are supposed to do is write down in the middle of th paper what your issue is and as you think of all the possible negative outcomes to the issue you write them down, so if you can't get yourself to get out of bed because your wallowing in self pity and depression like I am you write down why staying in bed helps. When you've finished that you write down all the things that getting out of bed would help and then you weigh up your options.

Sounds ridiculous but I'm going back to what I was told three odd years ago and see what I come up with.

Your right lots in life is bad, horrible..........but not everything. Xx