At the end of last summer I moved away from my family to study a postgraduate degree in Central London. The timing was not the most fortunate as I had a rather acrimonious break-up with my girlfriend around the same time. I figured the move would do me good: I was born and raised in Cornwall and, whilst it is a beautiful place, I felt stifled by the lack of professional and academic possibilities (I play mostly jazz on the double bass).
Within the first few weeks of the move I began having feelings of anxiety and low self-esteem, which I attributed to the recent relationship breakdown coupled with my move to a new and somewhat alien environment. I made the effort to attend musical groups and extra-curricular activities, and tried my utmost to absorb myself in my studies. A few months down the line I can only say that things have spiraled downwards. My self-esteem is perhaps lower than it has ever been; there are days in which I will actively avoid social interaction of any kind. My sleep cycle and appetite are totally erratic.Coming from a farming background I've always been an early riser, but the last few days, I am totally ashamed to say, have been spent almost entirely in bed. I feel little to no motivation or enthusiasm for things I would usually love doing, such as playing my instrument or going out for a long bike ride. I have also been purposefully avoiding my lectures despite knowing full well what the consequences may be. I have essay and dissertation proposal deadlines coming this week: both remain uncompleted and I feel totally unphased. At present I feel incapable and of extremely little worth. I have been attending counselling sessions at my university since October but find them of little use, and have found the same with the self-help guides found via the NHS site.
More recently a few members of my family have fallen ill. My family is a large and close-knit one, and all of us feel a very strong bond. Knowing they are unwell and being so far from them has only exacerbated my anxiety.
I have spoken to my family to some extent about my circumstances, but feel my problems are trivial in comparison, and am too ashamed to tell them everything. I know depression is hereditary on my father's side, and that he suffered with it when he was my age. I honestly thought I had the strength to deal with this myself, but am doubting that now. I have perhaps one friend I would feel comfortable talking to about this, but I know he suffers from periodically acute mental health issues, and as such is not always available to speak to.
My question, then, is this: would it be beneficial to approach my GP about this? Upon taking the NHS self-assessment it was the recommended course of action, but if all they're going to do is stuff me full of anti-depressants, I'm not sure I want to. I saw behavioural therapy mentioned on another thread here just now, is such a thing included on the NHS?
Many thanks for taking the time to read this.