I know I'm quite young but I feel like my whole life is ruined. Anything that could have gone wrong the past year has! I was a really good student and got really good GCSE grades and I couldn't wait to start Uni; but from the day I started my Alevels it just started going down hill. I got a job, started volunteering and started college but it soon became too much and I stopped going- it's like my brain just switched off and my confidence completely shut down and before I knew it college kicked me 3 months before I was meant to finish college all together! I have never felt so low. And then I get myself into debt as I'm buying things to try and make myself feel better but it never does so now I've got debt of just over £1000 and I have no Job. I lost my job as I was late too many times - I just slept a lot (well tried to) and it was just like I didn't care about anything at all. All I get from my family is grief over anything and everything and that's why I was so low over college because going to Uni was my one chance to get away and now I'm stuck there and to make it worse the one place I went to get away from everything was my aunties and she died from terminal cancer; we were so close and I can't stop thinking about her. Another problem I have is that I am self conscious about my looks I'm not really ugly or that but I really think I'm going go die alone. I have issues with my weight even tho I am quite slim I just think that I'm fat and no one is ever going to go for me.
I just seriously hate my life my friends have all gone to Uni, I have no job of any chance of a future. I'm in serious debt, I barely get on with my mum and dad. My auntie died. What should I do? I can't cope anymore.