I am Niraj Nirala, at 26. I am now totally fed up with my life. I don't what should I do with myself. I am Chartered Accountant student who failed 8times earlier in 2nd group of IPCC (Intermediate) exam and now once again just after 4 days 9th time I am going to appear. And today I am suffering from wheezing and shortness of breathing.
Let me tell you whole condition about my health. When I was 2-3 years old since then I am suffering from this (wheezing and shortness of breathing). I visited many as doctors till now if I say by guess for this problem I may had visited 30-40 doctors. Who suggested me if I will turn 10 it will automatically be gone but there were no changes then some other doctor suggested the same that I will be fine at the age of around 15 but still nothing changed. As my parents were not that known to that I had to get treated by a pulmonologist so till the age of somewhere 22-23 I always visited general physician/doctor. When I started reading about my problem on internet then I understood what is exactly I am facing. Mostly I get into this problem whenever face dust, change of weather, pollution. So I started visiting pulmonologist. Then one said I have allergy who treated me with medicines and told to wear mask all the time. Then after a year I visited another pulmonologist who declared I have chronic bronchitis what I believe this is the disease I am suffering from.
So since my childhood I suffered on an average 2times a year cold, cough, wheezing, shortness of breathing for atleast 1 month or more everytime; once suffered from Jaundice, Dengue, recently 1 month ago Chikangunia. I am 5"5 and my weight is 50kg. Always blocked throat for which I try to clear it which also sounds whole day.
My parents have no money so I will get treated by any well known or popular doctors by paying huge fees.
At the end in short I will say I have no health, no wealth, completely failing in my career, no personality, niether friends nor happy family and I am already 26; it became totally a hopeless life without any idea that why I hve been born. In an all I hate myself and say why I born. 2-3 times I was like I must not live any more mainly in the worst conditions of health. What should I do?? I have read and watched all motivational things.
Especially my health and career made me totally hopeless. No idea what should I do, where do I go?? 😭😭😭😢😢😫😥