My head is busy, I often feel dizzy.
Thoughts racing thick and fast,
Once upon a time, life, I did enjoy,
My days were always a blast.
I met a man, then all did change,
He often kicked me down the drain.
Called me fat, I did not like that,
He called me a heffer,
I starved til I was light as a feather.
I bore him children, two beautiful girls,
The day he took them from me,
My life changed in a whirl.
I sit here now in second class,
I feel like I am a load of trash.
The years passed by without a word,
Then in the post came an almighty letter.
From that day on, things have not got better.
The court I am fighting, for that I did not do,
Allegations thrown at me in absurd sexually.
I will fight my corner, like little jack horner,
I hope to pull out a plum, and stop this feeling of glum.
Innocent I am, I will stand my right,
To see my future, big, beautiful and bright.
As for my children, teens now they both are,
Abused and betrayed, they are near yet so far.
I look up to the sky and pray up to God,
They are only here cos they were expelled from my bod,
I nearly died on the bed that day,
I sure lost the battle, my baby so lifeless she lay,
Her cry then beckoned as she fought her first breath, relief it poured through me,
I smiled with glee, but the tears they did trip me, I felt fearfully.
My body was broken, beyond it's repair,
Disability it has got me and won't let me go.
The pain it does sear me,
I been told it is here to stay.
Sixteen years later I still have the hurt,
Now I have more, it seems all that I know.
To pull the plug see I would welcome it well.
Getting through each day is pure living hell.