Does anyone else suffer paranoia and mood swings with depression and anxiety/ panic/ stress attacks?
I feel like mine are getting worse not better. I don't think people realise how much of a day and mind can be taken up by what ifs and worrying and fighting negative thoughts.
I have had better days and worse but as time passes I don't feel like I'm improving. I feel like I'm constantly on the verge of a breakdown but I can't afford to be.
I find it hard to watch TV or listen to music as firstly I lode whole pieces of movie/ program disappearing inside my own thoughts...makes things hard to follow. Secondly my mood can drop in seconds and I have to leave the room.
Recently it was a film with a blonde lass... I was fine and enjoying it for once until the thought popped in my head how nice her hair looked and I would have loved for mine to get done like that.
My mood dropped so i went into the other room to feed the baby.
Well there isn't enough text space to write where those thoughts snowballed to.
It starts with I doesn't my hair look awful and spirals down to everyone would be better off if I wasn't around.
So much now affects me like that and it's random constant and tiring.