Depression questions?

[lalaxd]

When youre in a depressive episode what kind of thoughts do you have? Is it like you have a negative view of the world? Or you criticise yourself and have low self esteem,

Is it some form of trauma that keeps coming back to you? Or do you find that you have no thoughts its purely an experience that takes over your body?

My mum often asks me why i feel shit, why do i have depression, and i used to think i was just weak, i've been wondering what even is depression? Some people seem to think its a spiritual illness like my friend believes its the devil getting in her head, my mum seems to think its unhappiness, my auntie thinks its an illness like diabetes and she'll be on medication for the rest of her life.

Also whats the difference between depression and grief ? Or the difference between depression and unhappiness?

Is depression a tendency to feel shit? Or sometimes i feel like i just see the world for what it is, like from my point of view what is the point of life from a practical perspective, you work to eat and then eat to work... Why😩

Sorry for all the questions, 3am thoughts haha

[Marz21]

I can relate to this so much! I often wondered why did this thing not happen to any of my siblings but what was different about me that this resulted. I think it's been there since I was very young, but I have had times it got better. It did happen, and it will again. Just got to find the right thing or group of things to help.

[sweetiepye]

Hello lalaxd, It seems to me there are different kinds of depression and varying degrees of it. I can only tell you what I experience. Normally I am a pretty up person. My glass is half full. I like to do many things and I keep busy. When I get depressed it can start with something someone says or I will wake up feeling bad. So to me depression is a darkness, a heaviness. It's like trying to walk in cement shoes.. If I give in to it , it lasts longer. When I push against it , it goes away I am getting much better. It isn't as frequent and it doesn't last as long. It is difficult to change that dark mind set , but it can be done. You have to give yourself time and be kind to yourself. After all no one chooses to have this. It separates you from others and causes you to feel so alone., but I have seen people get over it. Have hope. Pam

[Suzie40]

For me depression is about waking up feeling like there's nothing to look forward to that day. Like getting to the bathroom to have a wash is the biggest job in the world. Like wanting to cancel any plans you've made for that day because seeing people is just too much effort.

I think depression and grief have a lot of similarities (I've dealt with both at the same time). I suppose grief has a reason (presumably someone died) whereas depression comes with an element of uncertainty. A lot of people (myself included) have lives that many would envy - a good job, good salary, healthy children; yet they still have a deep sadness that consumes them.

Just my thoughts!

[lalaxd in reply to Suzie40]

Thankyou for sharing!

[Stilltrying_]

This is such an interesting thread, and I am very interested in this issue but just not feeling well enough to reply sensibly at the moment but I do thank you for your 3am thoughts and maybe I will contribute if/when I feel a bit clearer. I do think it can mean many different things to many different people.

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I feel like I want to kill myself

[lalaxd in reply to Hidden]

I feel like that too sometimes

[Hidden in reply to lalaxd]

I’m sorry u feel that way! I am taking Setraline and Trazadone and they help me a lot but I still think negative sometimes. I hope u feel better soon.