Ive been with my boyfriend for about 2 years, and I do love him, but I just cant do it anymore. Hes done a complete 180 in the past few months and nothing changes. I found out after a year that he had a cocaine addiction. I told him if he continued with it, I was leaving. This was after I moved 1,000 miles away from my family to be with him. Well, we moved again and I thought it would get better since he usually always works. I was wrong. It started when he had the flu for a week, then for just about the at entire month he just didnt go to work because he was "too sick" but he was perfectly fine to go out and "drink". From there it all snowballed. We are constantly in debt and he tells me its because he's paying the bills. Yet out cable was just shut off today. O.o he's constantly deleting text messages and when I questioned him about it he said it was done of my business. I ended up giving him an ultimatum, either tell me what he's doing and ill forgive, or lie and I leave. Well he lied so I started packing my things. He flew into a crazy rage and told me how awful I was to ruin my "engagement" surprise and that he had been designing one for me. Well this was 2 months ago and I have yet to see this ring. And in the past week he spent over $10,000. On what I have no clue. He says bills, yet he still owes on everything. He even yelled at me for paying back my dad and writing out another check that needed to be paid. This was out of my paycheck. Well the rest of my money is gone and we are now $2,000 in the hole. The other thing that gets me is even though we are so much in debt, he still goes out "drinking". Im not stupid and can almost guarantee that he found a dealer here and he's doing thay crap again. I found a text in his phone from a number with no assigned name to it from a night he supposedly went to the bar. Well it had nothing to do with drinking and apparently he was at someone's house. Now he is on the verge of losing his job. I have a way out but im terrified to take it. One of my friends has a cabin and he said tha I can just stay there, hhe'll pay the bills so I can save my money to move back to where my family is. I know I cant live like this anymore, but why is it so hard for me to leave?