So today I went to my grandparents house. It was nice, but I started to wonder if they just put on a smile only when I'm around. I know my mom doesn't, she doesn't care to at least give the impression that she likes me. I feel like since my mom is the only one that really knows who I am that I'm just to much to handle and it broke her. When I go on Facebook or Instagram and see all these people with great, awesome lives I think of how good it must be to be like them. To have friends who like you for you, to have a family who doesn't sigh when you walk in the door after coming home from school, to have at least one person or thing in their life who really loves them. I've tried and tried to think of someone in my life who really, truly loves me. I can't think of any, not even the family pets love me for Christ sake. I just don't know what the hell is wrong with me to the point where no body will love me for who I am. I have friends but that's just because I put on a face and never really show who I am. I can only remember this one friend, from elementary school. He and I were very close, to the point where we'd celebrate each other's birthdays together. But a few weeks ago I found him again on Facebook, with all new friends and a new life. Then I see me, sitting in my room alone with nobody who wants to go out together or just hang out. I just don't know anymore. I hope and pray that maybe in the future when I move away and have a job that I'll meet someone, anyone who will just wanna hang out. But my hope is starting to run out and I need something, someone...
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