Haven't posted in a while, but thought I'd post about my first counselling session with MHCO.... no I haven't actually looked up what it means lol
But anyway, I was late by 20 minutes because I couldn't find the bloody place! I was ringing the MHCO office number and no one was picking up. Finally I found it.
It's in this really posh area in Nottingham. Huge houses. The place itself is in this MASSIVE house, it's a little mansion easily costs one million! Was really interesting to be in there tbh.
Anyway, my counsellor (Maria) is really nice actually, she took the time to explain to me that because of my families history with depression (my granddad one my mum's side has had it for years, quite badly, and my mum herself when she was pregnant years ago, and recently now as well) that I have a chemical imbalance in my body. In other words my depression is in my blood. And there is nothing I can do, but help correct the balance.
She said to me that I may have to be on anti-depressants for the rest of my life, but it'd be worth it because it'd help me so much. She also explained that I can try help myself but I need the extra help from medication to correct what's wrong.
This actually made me feel a lot better. Though I was sad that I may have to be on tablets for the rest of my life. I'm only 20 and that's a lot to take. I feel too young. But she said to me, I can either take a tiny pill that will help me to the point where I actually feel normal or I can ruin life and continue with how I am now....
And I totally agree with her. Think she has set me straight.
I just need to go to the doctors now and change my medication as apparently citalopram is clearly not working for me.