I don't know what's the matter with me. I plucked up the courage and re-joined the gym on Friday...sick of talking to the wall at home.
The only person I see generally is my son who is out all week at school (6th form). Been down since yesterday.
I went to town today to get some bits for the gym; went into a cafe for a coffee and sat there as "Bill no mates" and everyone was in "twos" and I felt so out of place just having a drink. I was out for about 3 hours all told and I didn't see one person I know. I am beginning to feel like a social outcast. Am I that awful that I can't call on anyone to meet for a coffee and well as for a relationship I must be butt ugly; I am beginning to feel it that's for sure.
I got home and I feel so miserable. I am snapping at my son...not his fault.
I knew it was going to be bad when I got up this morning, had a cuppa and then burst into tears.
I know it's not the end of the world but I just want to get off this bloody hamster wheel.