I apparently went to the doctors this time last year, feeling suicidal. I went back a week ago, and that's when she said i had been before with the same problem, i have been low, crying, irritated by others, intolerant of others, no motivation, taking up more work to keep busy but finding it a struggle with no motivation. I don't even want to go to work tomorrow, which is the easiest job in the world.
I went to the doctors Tuesday, seen the female doctor, she said counselling as a first choice, i agreed i'm happy to try it. But a week on i have spend yesterday and today moping about and today spent most of it crying, so booked an emergency up the doctors, i seen the male doctor, he knows of my twin already on tablets for depression, my mum use to, it runs in the family even my nan etc, but now i think it has caught onto me.
I spoke to him, burst ed out crying because i couldn't explain how i felt or didn't know how to explain it. He basically wrote more notes on his PC and turned me away, saying counselling will be around 8 weeks waiting, i can not wait 8 weeks, i am getting worse, these past two months are turning into three miserable months, right now i rather not face work tomorrow, it is not like me..
He was rushed this evening, he said about booking a proper appointment and talking properly so he can assess it! I spent 10mins explaining how i felt, and he turned me away, should i try and book another appointment tomorrow with him? The female doctor is away for a week, i really am asking for help now, i normally dont, i would normally just get by another week, i don't think i can carry on much longer with this cloud.