i really need some advice/help please..

[LouLou17]

I opened up to my dad and said to him that i have self harmed, and that i feel low all the time and that i don't see a point in life anymore. i then tried to tell my mum that i think i could have depression and my mum just said that i was stressed and i wasn't mentally ill and with her saying that, its put me off going to my doctor and i'm not really sure what to do because this week everything has just got too much and i was in college today and i thought about getting a rope from the p.e department and hanging myself in school and i was so ready to do it, i'm scared that one day i'll actually try and do it.

[missrat]

Do make an appointment to see your doctor. If you are self-harming and getting suicidal thoughts it is a sign that you do need some kind of support or treatment. It doesn't mean you're 'mad' or 'mentally ill' in that way - it's very common, but warrants treatment as soon as possible. Also, there may be a college counsellor who can help.

Ann

[LouLou17 in reply to missrat]

thank you so much for replying! i'm just worried that if my school find out then they'll do the whole 'i'm really sorry for what happened, you know you can always talk to us blah blah blah' and what do you say to the doctor/gp/nurse when they ask whats wrong? i'm just worried that they'll say that i'm faking it or that im stressed from school work?

[missrat]

Depression is a recognised illness and I'm sure they will believe you

[Gambit62]

Parents don't always have all the answers - remember my mother telling me not to worry when I had a bad UTI and was passing blood - told me to go to bed and see the doctor the next day ... by which time I was running a really high temperature - couldn't keep anything down and when I got to the surgery they made me wait in a spare examination room because they didn't want me putting the other patients off! - that's a bit of an extreme case but it is very easy to listen to parents and forget that they don't always know best.

Is there a counsellor at college you could talk to? Particularly if you are self harming. It might be less scary than going to the GP straight out ... or may be not

Try not to get too anxious about the suicidal thoughts - if you are stressed then they are quite common and I think they actually start as the brain trying to calm you down - it's looking for an out and death is the ultimate out ... but sometimes it backfires and because they come out of the blue we get scared and stressed about them and the silly old brain sends us round in an anxiety loop with even more thoughts about death and suicide.

[LouLou17 in reply to Gambit62]

Thank you so much guys, seriously! I've summed up the courage to call my doctor in the morning and book an appointment, this is my biggest fear but I have to get over it and get my problem sorted out. I think my mum doesn't like the thought that her child could be mentally ill, I'll just tell her once I've been so she won't have to worry, I'm not going to get the school involved because everything spreads round like wildfire, thank you again guys you genuinely really are helping me!

[1darkangel]

You really need to speak to your Doctor as this could become a lot wosre if you do not get help now. You can and will feel better with help and medication after about 4 - 6 weeks. Treatment early is essential. Take care.