Hello people I'm Mannara and to be very honest I have joined in to seek help. I'm a student and this is the last year of my school , things are not going well I don't understand I have really really tried to make them better but no use .
I'm an introvert and people usually see it as a kind of illness to be treated . I never had friends cause I just don't fit in anywhere however in the past 2 years I tried very hard to fit in but that is not me. I can't be myself with these people I don't like . People say that you have to love others in order to be happy and successful which is quite true but these people make me hate them pretty much everyone. There is no one whom I can talk to who can understand me no one not even my mom I feel so alone. I cry alone in my room almost everyday and no one cares cause no one knows and do not bother to know .
My another problem is school it made consult psychiatrists . I was so sick and annoyed with it that I hardly went to school this year as a result my attendance got short and I was not allowed to give midterms . Now I'm going regularly but any of my work isn't complete and I'm not studying at all . I have tons of work pending which I keep delaying . I have tried a lot of stuff but nothing helps me to force myself to work or study. I'm a master procrastinator so good that I think I deserve an award .
I don't know what's wrong with me I read I journal, I exercise , I do yoga , I meditate not regularly though , I'm organised . I do everything accept for studing this is crazy .
If you people have any suggestions please help I shall really be thankful.