Life is not worth living

[bonny12346]

Sorry. Me again. 3 different doctors are telling me to do different things. I put 2 stone on with Gabepentin. I feel like a guinea pig. I’m not being dramatic just pragmatic

My son has to take days off if I can get to some appointments and my daughter has to have time off work to look after my dog who is now 15.

I was going to try and get to the hospital to have a colonoscopy. But it’s caused a big row. So that won’t be happening. I am just a burden. I can’t do anything I used to do I also have tics . If I was an animal and had to have people to do everything for you. It would be kinder to put me down.

I am so proud of both my children they have worked so hard to get where they are. I won’t be able to go to her wedding next year but she understands why I can’t go.

I wish I was dead.

[wobblybee Administrator Pioneer]

😏 It causes enormous stress and frustration when various ‘conditions’ become challenging at the same time. It’s not surprising that spirits can reach an all time low, and the will to push doctors for an accurate diagnosis loses impetus 😏 But, think about this, if you’ve been offered a Colonoscopy, and the findings could possibly shed a light on your current situation, why not take it, despite the hassle 🤔 I’ve had a Colonoscopy, granted it wasn’t as intrusive as it might have been, and I was an outpatient. Others I know have also had Colonoscopies, and it didn’t involve long stays in hospital. If caring for your pet is the biggest concern, ask your GP for advice as to how long the procedure is likely to take, it could be just a few hours. 🤔 xB

[Mary-intussuception]

Hi bonny

Firstly , please don't apologise.

On a practical note - have you heard of the Cinnamon Trust? I think it's an organisation that helps with looking after your dog if you become ill or older and less able. Might be worth Googling for a phone number to enquire if they have anyone near you who could help occassionally ?

Always remember :

You are Precious, Valued and Loved

also - You are so proud of your hard working, successful children and so you should be. You brought them in to the world and raised them well - such an excellent achievement. Just be proud of YOU for a moment!

Hopefully the row will be forgotten in time. You are not a burden. xxx

God Bless

xXx

[Mary-intussuception]

Cinnamon Trust :

01736 757900 Mon - Fri 9am - 5pm

Emergency available 24 hours.

x 🐕 🐶

[bonny12346]

I don’t know how to explain!

My 26 yr old son doesn’t get fibro and cfs/me I try to talk about it with him but after a phone call to him last night,he thinks I’m attention seeking. "His brain seems to work at 3 or4 times the speed of mine and when I went to school I still suffered with anxiety,depression and panic attack’s.

Funnily enough because my mum was 40yrs older than me, she didn’t believe in them either. Used to love the nights he popped in we would have a great time but as my mind is getting slower and vocabulary reducing. I don’t think he listens to me at all anymore. He just nods and shakes his head at pretty much the

right places Which is really upsetting. As you can see it takes me ages to communicate. I would love to know how to

Précis things which he craves.

He also can’t understand why I can’t do any housework. I do but I have to pace myself . He is sure that if I did some more housework I would be able to get to sleep before 5/6 am. Again I don’t give him an answer fast enough he gets frustrated and fed up. The spoon theory is too long and he hasn’t the time to read it.

I’ve been having a really bad week. Hallucinating and feeling as if I am not in the same time and place. Very Dr Who.

Bereavement,depersonalisation and sever

empty nest syndrome the doctors say. Add to that my pain patch went missing between the doctors and chemist I t got to

the district nurse was not happy. If I sent othis to my son he probably wouldn’t read it. Too long .

When I have to go to the dentist he does put himself out to take me and also getting the cancer sorted (things you see) I am als