ideal weight? serious psychology, but not crazy,this is normal!

[rubyvirk]

POEM,prose...

went down to 9.7, even lower, after years of battle losing 3 stones to get there but 5ft 10, realised needed to be a stone heavier to look healthy feel normal, also developed abnormal anorexic tendency, i know that one as well as overweight and fat! and also psychology of anorexic..

school girl problems of self image from years back motivated me but also the idea of health seemed more important than vanity, didn't help being tallest in my class...

terrible life stress leads onto rapid weight gain so swang the other way

comfort eating, filling voids, losing this losing that but not the weight to any satisfaction, leads to control...

fluctuate 3 stones up 3 stones down not good, fear of obesity plagues me now

guilty for the fact in western civilization we have everything here and we do not starve, unless you have an image problem and loose the plot of who you are

thanx