Binge Starve Cycles

[MintTeaMascara]

I know this is more of an eating disorder but heck... If we're all struggling so bad with weight, have we all not got some type of disorder going on?

Well, today I binged for the first time in a while but I caught myself this time!

I caught that little voice of mine telling myself "I'm bad" and that "I'd failed" and that "I should be ashamed of myself" and that "I should do another fast day tomorrow to make up for it". I caught myself self-punishing with fasts!

So new healthy self-talk - "You made a mistake, that's normal, it's understandable that you turned to food for comfort today, in the grand scheme of things it's really not going to affect your health or weight-loss. You could do with some decent food tomorrow to keep your energy levels up. Plan a healthy day, stick to it and continue with your light/fast day on Thursday as planned. You can do this! Don't worry you're going to get through it and are doing really well! You don't need to punish yourself."

*Stops hanging my head in shame, looks up and starts to find confidence in moving forward*

I've heard people saying before that it's a type of self-punishment but it's never resonated with me as I've never had the self-insight.

Catching myself today with that little bit of negative self-talk and becoming aware of the fact that I really am punishing myself, seems so little but really is a massive turning point for me.

Little victories, big difference.

Thank you, everyone, who has shown and continues to show support here!

It means a lot.

[Sheperdess Maintainer]

What a brave post and so helpful to everyone who is going through the same kind of doubts ☺️You showed tremendous insight to catch yourself and turn it around. That’s a fantastic achievement. Now you’ve done it once you are much more likely to do it again. Realising that you are not a bad person who deserves punishing but someone wanting better health for yourself is important. Learning how to handle those emotional moments that have sabotaged your weight loss in the past when you have been feeling disappointed in yourself is the best way forward. You have found a great way to help yourself and through that are helping others. Wow 😮 You are wonderful 😊

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI in reply to Sheperdess]

Thank you. It's been a long road and I think this is really key for lasting change.

Thanks again

[Missdoubleyou]

I agree that many of us have issues with food. I think I ‘self medicate’ when I feel tired or upset about something. Or should I say ‘I did’ as I’m now in week 2 of healthy eating!

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI in reply to Missdoubleyou]

It takes time to find the stability with things and it's good to recognize where the problem is for you.

All the best with everything as you move ahead

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI]

You're welcome.

I like that, "different boat, same ocean"

[Food4Fuel 7lbs]

Thanks for sharing this MTM - bingeing is a very hard habit to break I know. I find it comforting to know though that others struggle with it too - and your example gives me the confidence to keep trying to overcome it. You’ve also made me stop and think how I’m doing in this area as I’ve found the last couple of days a struggle. So maybe some self reflection is needed. I agree that negative self talk is so destructive. Draw a line under it and move on - if you are feeling uncomfortable today I would suggest drinking lots of water and going for a walk. Not to punish yourself of course but to give your digestive system a helping hand 😊 have a great day and thanks again for your honesty 😊

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI in reply to Food4Fuel]

😊 thanks. I'm glad it could help and hope you get to the same place with time.

It is harder today as I'm back at square 1 with the cravings, but yes, I'm planning to keep myself busy walking and being out in nature today so it's only a matter of time before the cravings start to get easier again. Thank you.

[Food4Fuel 7lbs in reply to MintTeaMascara]

Distraction is a great way to deal with it I find - hope you enjoy your day in nature too 😊 fully knowing those cravings will pass!

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI in reply to Food4Fuel]

Thank you

[zinza]

Nice job MintTeaMascara !

In my opinion the main point is not about committing a mistake, but noticing it and working to fix it.

Congratulations for your effort and have a nice Wednesday.

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI in reply to zinza]

Yeah I agree. That's why I'm so happy, that I noticed it

Thank you and have a lovely day too

[Doing4me]

So pleased you wrote this. It really resonated with me.

I’ve been doing so well since last summer but since Covid hit it’s got me (the world) out of sorts. It’s good to have a reminder to be kind to ourselves after all we are kind to others so why not ourselves. We all deserve kindness.

Thanks again.

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI in reply to Doing4me]

you're welcome

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI]

You're probably right because people get hooked on the comfort of it and no doubt the average person eats too much starchy, stodgy food.

The problem is purely a psychological/emotional issue for me though.

[Bee-bop Maintainer 2st 7lbs]

Hi MintTeaMascara,

That is fantastic insight as well as your positive response to it. Keep going with your new you 👍

[MintTeaMascara Healthy BMI in reply to Bee-bop]

Hiya Bee,

Thank you.

[Pink4eva]

Hi I think I replied to the wrong post, meant to reply to this one but have replied to a post from a few months ago.