To lose or not to lose ... That's what Shakespeare would say if he would have been fat 😂 I say , to lose .

[RoxiGoesSkinny]

Hello everyone ! How is your day and your diet going ?

I've been good today , not yesterday but shh we can't talk about yesterday 😂 at least not now !

Today was such a busy day , I prepared my food as for the next 3 days , I will be at work for lunch and dinner so I for lunch I have : ham sandwich with garlic soft cheese (30gr-50kcals😱🎉€ , cucumber and 1 nectarine . Total cals per lunch - 450cals . 😋

Dinner is weight watchers : lasagna , bolognese pasta and cottage pie , each has a bit above 350 cals and green beans . Per dinner - 420-430kcals and each dinner cost me around 1,75£ ❤️

Done my dancing 40 min , I'm about to go out for a bit of a walk plus a bit of jogging and I had 2l of water .

That's all , I can't do more than this at the moment , can't wait for next Monday to see how I did . Today the entire time I was dancing and smiling , I do this everyday but today it felt amazing .

Today I had a thought : I will not be able to do it and my thought made my stomach painful but today I recived so many beautiful words from a coworker , I had happy costumers and a good laugh . All of this made me forget the bad thought . I get this often as I have a bit of darkness in my life and that's called grieving . 2 very loved people in my life have died and even though it's been 2 and 4 years since , My grief is the same , my pain is fresh like everything happend just yesterday . Have you ever loved someone more than yourself or life itself? If you did or still doing it , losing that person feels like a non-stop earthquake that shakes you from your roots . In the end you live with the pain but nothing is the same . I feel like they took away with them parts of me because before I was ambitious , funny and people wanted to stay near me , I was energetic and full of light and now I feel like I've aged 10 years in just 2 of the darkest days of my life . Everything took place so quick , we were all fine and now there are dark clouds above out heads . But I'll be fine, maybe one day it won't hurt.

I hope you all have had a good day and if there are people you love very much and you haven't talked to in awhile , call them , tell them you love them cause for some people there is no tomorrow , do it at least once , you'll make them happy .

Sleep well everyone and enjoy your dinner 😘

Roxi

[SC94]

Food looks great in that picture!! Making me hungry! Haha

[RoxiGoesSkinny in reply to SC94]

Thank you very much SC94 😘😘❤️❤️

[Caz28]

Hi Roxi, your food looks very yummy, and you are do organised! So sorry you've lost loved ones, unfortunately it is something I am sure a lot of us, myself included have experienced, and I hope the dark clouds will lift for you soon. Nice that your colleague lifted your spirits! Hope you have a good day!

[RoxiGoesSkinny in reply to Caz28]

You're beyond lovely Caz28 !

Thank you very much x that's very nice of you to say 😘😘💕💕💕💕

[Marylou54]

Oh Roxi I do empathise with you - I have had a horrible few years in many ways. My life changed dramatically and I have had to be strong for everyone. This has caused me to suffer with depression and poor health and I only realise now that I need to take care of myself first - difficult when you normally put others first. Grief can take many forms and it takes a long time to deal with it. Am sending you lots of hugs....

[RoxiGoesSkinny in reply to Marylou54]

I'm very gratefull to you ! I'm sorry you had to know that kind of sadness , I hope that time will be indeed a doctor , I hope that wounds will turn into scar and tears into smiles but sometimes I feel like that's impossible but no matter what , no matter what I feel , I still have to wake up in the morning and go to work . I can't give up but I'm sure that inside me something little has given up and that little make things so hard for me .

I seed you hugs as well and strenght and I hope you'll be fine ❤️

[Marylou54]

I know that feeling too but we also have to realise that although that part of you has "given up" YOU have not given up - you are stronger than you may think and you will achieve what you have set out to do. Hang on in there!!!

P.s. Can you tell me how to send the imojicon things on the posts here????

[RoxiGoesSkinny in reply to Marylou54]

Thanx a lot ❤️

I send the emoji from my phone . I'm typing straight from my phone ! If you do it from a computer there are no emoji's only from a phone , tablet , ipad !

😘❤️💕💕

[Marylou54 in reply to RoxiGoesSkinny]

Oh bother -mine is very primitive and can only do a couple of froggy ones Never mind - will have to use old fashioned words -"smiley face" etc.....!!!

[Marylou54 in reply to RoxiGoesSkinny]

Oh obviously i can do something with mine - will have to practise and see.... it'll keep me entertained for a bit and then I won't be grazing - win win!:-)

[RoxiGoesSkinny in reply to Marylou54]

Marylou54 you're so funny 😂😘😘

The one that cries is pretty impressive !

[Marylou54 in reply to RoxiGoesSkinny]

The really funny thing is that I have NO idea of how I'm doing it As I'm fond of saying Hey Ho - I'll just keep trying and experimenting ....actually the story of my life in many ways ;-)

[IndigoBlue61]

RoxiGoesSkinny well done on being so organised and all the exercise ! I'm sure the scales will reflect all your efforts 😊

When we lose loved ones I don't believe we ever 'get over it' we just, in time, learn to live with the hole they leave in our lives. Be kind to yourself, in time your happy memories will be stronger than the pain ❤️

[RoxiGoesSkinny in reply to IndigoBlue61]

Thank you IndigoBlue61 😢😢

It's just that I miss them so much that it hurts when I breathe .

Thank you very much for your kind words

[IndigoBlue61 in reply to RoxiGoesSkinny]

I know 😢 Big hugs x

[muffintop67]

Hi Roxy. Your post bought a tear to my eye. We lost my lovely father-in-law (who was like a second Dad to me) last October and still feel his loss every day. So sorry you are feeling this way. I guess it never goes away you just have to learn to live with it. Sounds like you are a very organised lady sorting all your food for work and I love the fact that you dance a lot. I hope the dancing helps to lift your spirits a little

[RoxiGoesSkinny in reply to muffintop67]

Thank you very much ❤️

I send you hugs and I really hope you will be fine 😘

[GemmaMeb]

Wow, Roxi!

You are really committed to this - a role model for us all. Well done. Can't wait to hear how your next few days go. Keep up tge good work.

Gemma x

[RoxiGoesSkinny in reply to GemmaMeb]

Aww GemmaMeb thank you very much ❤️

I can't wait to see how I did this week ! Really anxious and curious !

Hope you're well Gemma and hope that your journey goes well as well 😘