Advice Needed- Partner Becoming Grandparent.

[BB1233]

Hi all,

I'm hoping to find someone in my position that could basically tell me I'm not alone & everything will be okay.

I was diagnosed with PCOS at 23 but was in the middle of a breakup, house sale when I received the news so I never really thought about it. Anyway I'm now 27 & with my partner of 3 years who is so supportive and knows about my diagnosis & doesn't want anymore children which is fine as I've never wanted children either. My partner 15 years older than me & has 2 grown up sons, one of which is having his own baby later in the year. Since finding this out my anxiety about not being able to have children is really taking its toll, I feel like I'm grieving for something I don't want & I don't deserve be feeling the way I do as children have never been on my radar. The thought of seeing the man I love with his grandchild scares the life out of me knowing that I'll never have that. Ive been burying my head in the sand pretending it's not happening but then whenever it's spoken about I just break down, I'm so confused as to why I feel this way. I've never thought/wanted children but now the decision is no longer mine it really is hard to get my head around & then thrown in the mix a grandchild. I'm trying to be positive & happy but the pain & hurt is constant, the image of my partner holding his grandchild is all I think about. I've spoken to my partner about this he's fully aware & is very supportive & understanding but it's just not the same as speaking to a woman who's been in this position. Any advice or tips on how to compute the diagnosis would be greatly appreciated, thankyou x