There was a very interesting post on here yesterday from Reikimaster who was having problems with T3, and not wishing to hijack her thread, I am posting a question myself which is semi-related.
There was a reply from WildDeer, saying among the things that had set her back on her T3 'journey' was quote 'pushing on through stress and ending up thyrotoxic....main sign my internal voice chanting 'get me out of here'. I recognise this as my receptors being affected by stress and unable to absorb the T3'.
I don't want to write another book here as I always seem to do and of course I know that stress can have a major effect on physical as well as emotional well being.
I also know from past experince that pushing on through any kind of stress, whether that means overdoing it physically or the never ending battles with docs over medication etc definitely has a detriemental effect on the way I feel.
I was just so interested in the 'get me out of here' from WildDeer's internal voice. I get much the same thing, except my voice isn't just internal, it's something that I find myself saying or thinking almost on a daily basis! OK, wrong to dwell on it I know. I absolutely hate where I live and began to get really sick after we had been here for about 6 months (that was when the T4 disagreed with me in a big way after 12 comparatively stable years). We had also had an incredibly stressful 3 years or so before we came here. (Let's face it, it's impossible for anybody to live a completely stress-free life, but this was worse than usual, even in the context of my somewhat up and down life).
I knew I was pushing it, but hoped I would get away with it, because at the time I didn't have any choice but to push on through. But it seems as though now I have exchanged all that stress for another kind which is just as bad. Actually it's worse, because before I was at least able to function.
I have tried to 'fit in', keep busy and think of here as 'home', and won't go into a long boring rambling tale of what has happened. I'm just wondering if (as I suspect) that the literal - not just internal - voice which is loudly saying 'get me out of here' could be construed as 'long term unrelieved stress with no prospect of relief in sight', which is what it feels like, and which I have read is the worst kind of stress to have as it's with you all the time. And of course rampant HypoT doesn't help at all, it's a stress factor all on it's own. So could all this be affecting my ability to absorb the T3? Or is this, as John Cleese once said, Stating the Bleeping Obvious'? It's so infuriating and frustrating to be hamstrung by you own emotions and physical body, as I guess everybody on here knows.
My own experience of T3 has been that when I first tried it I couldn't tolerate it at all, but having improved my vitamin and ferritin levels a bit, though they could be better, I went back to it as 'the least worst' of everything I had tried, including trying to go back on levo four times with dire results. I have only been able to take very small amounts and felt I had made a little progress, though without any huge leaps forward (to be expected with only taking a crumb).
I had an unpleasant run-in with a GP at the surgery last week - there is a HUGE thread on that somewhere :-D, and despite my determination not to fight with him, it was very upsetting and I've felt really lousy physically for the past few days, even though having a rant helped a lot emotionally. It's a daunting and frightening prospect that ANY kind of emotional or physical stress is going to make me feel so ill it's like I've made no progress at all.
I was surprised when I appeared to pass all the tests for adrenal insufficiency, (ie I didn't have it), but as I have huge difficulties with tolerating supplements, I haven't risked taking anything to support them for fear of feeling worse.
I would be interested to hear if anybody else has experienced this 'let me out of here' phenomenon - either internally or as a real issue, what effect it has had on them and what if anything they did about it?
I have tried so hard to adapt to my surroundings, and feel a failure that I haven't been able to and my health has become so much worse - whether because of that or just co-incidence, I don't know. And lo and behold, I HAVE written another flipping book! Sorry!