I’ve been having lots and lots and lots of investigative tests recently because of being anaemic for a year and because of many other odd symptoms - in more than 1 part of my body - that have yet to be explained away.
I’ve had a mammogram, an endoscopy, a colonoscopy, ECGs, a CT scan (that went wrong), an MRI, at least 4 ultrasounds (of separate parts of the body) and numerous other checks, blood tests and stool tests, just in this one year.
The symptoms, body changes and pains remain and the investigations roll painfully slowly on.
I am due to get some important results back - in a conversation with the relevant specialist doctor - tomorrow. The prospect of this chat tomorrow has been weighing very heavily on me since I had the test done last week, and my attention span has been abysmal (much shorter) during this span and in many other ways I have been catching myself feeling unusually anxious.
How do you all deal with anxieties about things that are happening to your body / mind or that might be happening to you?
I find the fears about cancer sit in a particularly nasty category of anxieties. The cancer ones, for me, are the fears that - when the symptoms are still unexplained - are nastiest of all.
Tests are a horrible waiting game - tell me how you face up to your fears or even how you run away from them! Whatever’s worked for you, I want to hear it, please.