Yes it's true the dog died a week ago. A great dog we've had for nearly 12 years from a puppy. The loss was sudden & heartbreaking for me & the family. On top of this we found out a close family member has cancer. Then my mother rang (about the dog) I hadn't told her as she's one of those people who knows it all or knows someone who has got worse & she never listens. So I sit for an hour listening to problems of people I don't know & get nowhere when she asks how I am! Pft!!! I can't turn to hubby as he's had to go away for work. I'm now not in a good place, I'm tired and too hot! I went shopping today & forgot my glasses, so had to come back home, then I left again without the parcels I should have been taking to the post office. When I finally got back home the house felt too empty & I felt completely drained. I spend the evening alone as my son went out with friends ( something I encourage as he's really upset about the dog) So I go to bed early ( exhaustion is my friend) I don't sleep, I toss and turn, half doze but no real sleep, I have what feels like mutant butterflies in my stomach, and a boulder in my throat, whilst my head pounds & my body shakes. So I'm sitting here at 1/2 past5 with my holy basil tea, trying to calm my mind & body. I know it will pass, but I hate how it affects my whole being.
I hope today will be better? Thanks for listening friends & stay well